Kemain ye engko mintak gitu gini, nak laki tuff segala..ewah..
Update setelah 6 tahun ; telah berpunya tetapi masih belum berkahwin. Wawawa.
Referring to this blog post, I assume everyone is expecting any good news from my relationship. Tbh, Im not gonna get married soon. Once the time has come, I'll share with you. Wish us the best ok :)
Zaman sekarang bila buka Facebook, Instagram, ramai betul kawan yang dah bertunang dan berkahwin. Im so happy looking at their pictures! Who doesn't love wedding kan,, everything seems beautiful *,* The last wedding I attended to was Faliq's (my boyfriend's brother), like 3 months ago. I love being a part of the wedding plan, rasa macam tuan rumah pulak whaha acahhh~ Nonetheless, I wish every newly wed couples, an eternal happiness with their spouse and may Allah shower your marriage with His endless blessings.
Back to my topic above ; ok, kisahnya gini. Me and my boyfriend had talked about it in a very serious (ok, not that serious, we were laughing in shy lol) tone. And we had decided it would be in two years time, insha allah. BUT the point is, am I really prepared ??
Banyak benda woo kena fikir bila masuk bab kahwin ni. Lagi lagi aku ni memang jenis pemikir (yes, I plan every event in my life very precise. Kalau ada benda tak menjadi, aku rasa tak senang.) For me, marriage is not just about making your relationship 'halal'. It's A LOT more than it. Main issue that bothers me is responsibility. Yes, 'with great power, comes great responsibility', quoted from Spiderman.
I think I have no problem being a wife. By far, setakat ilmu rumah tangga tu, insha allah dah cukup rasanya untuk melayakkan diri menjadi seorang isteri. But being a mother? That's the issue. Tak, bukan taknak jadi ibu, cuma tak rasa mampu tampung tanggungjawab tu. Bukan senang ok. Seeing my mum who stands alone as a single parent, raising us 5 siblings is real hard. But she never gives up (maybe she feels like to but she doesn't).
Bukan nak rasa over-confidence with my relationship but at this moment, Im only with my boyfriend and not seeing my future with anyone else. We'll try to make it to the end, Im glad that he's trying too at the same time. Makanya, kami pun ada juga bercakap tentang kehidupan lepas kahwin, what's gonna happen later. Memang kita hanya mampu merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan. Tapi berbanding dengan tak merancang apa apa, tak ke lagi payah nanti? Again I repeat, Im a planner myself. Okkkk? Ok. His response was fine, he thinks my plan is okay for him to cope with. Syukur nokss.
Moga bila tiba masanya, Allah akan permudahkan segalanya untuk kami. Tak best juga bila asyik fikir pasal benda yang tak jadi lagi. Tapi tulah, siapa pulak nak fikir pasal future kita kalau bukan diri sendiri haha. See ya!
ps : my decision to stay at my own place after married is final. I reaaalllyyy wanna decorate my apartment weyy
Tak sabar nak bela kucing sama sama hihuho